A few thoughts

I have to admit that I was really floored by the loss of my grandfather. I know it must seem selfish. In all reality, it is. Gramps was one month away from being 94. He lived a long, fruitful & very happy life. This fact is best demonstrated by the fact that the body that was to be seen lying in the casket at the wake looked nothing like the man I knew. The simple reason behind that is that for all the 36 years that I knew him, he was always smiling.

Gramps had a beautiful smile. Just check out the picture posted below.

So, why was I so surprised? I'd just seen him about 2 weeks before he passed away. He was energetic, simling & joking (as always) and sharp as a tack. I remember commenting on the car trip home how that despite his age, he seemed healthy as a horse. It was amazing. I guess that's why, when shortly thereafter I learned that he'd been admited to the hospital for a bleeding ulcer, I really didn't think much of it. Afterall, Gramps had been through this before. His ulcer was healed by Sunday night. But I think he'd had enough. He'd been ready to go for a long time. I just wasn't ready to let go. I'm still not.

I feel amazingly lucky to have had him for as long as I did. He was a very special man, as was my grandmother. I prefer to think of them finally reunited in the afterlife.

There has been another thing that has floored me over the last several days. It's the pure generousity and kindness of those around me. For a man of 94, I really didn't expect too many people to still be around to send Gramps off. Boy was I wrong! I am truly touched by the consideration of those who took the time from their busy day to visit with Gramps & with our family. In an era where there is never enough time to do anything, the fact that so many were willing to put their lives on hold for a few moments of quiet with us did not go unappreciated.

Finally, I must say that I am so very touched by the generosity of my future brother-in-law, Chris. Despite the fact that he was in the middle of putting together a company celebration for Klipmart, he took the time to send me one of the most beautiful bouquets of flowers that I've ever received. This, as well as Alec & his parents attendance at the wake & funeral really made me feel so happy to soon become a member of their family. I love them all so dearly.

And just when I thought everything had quieted down, I received a lovely basket of houseplants & stargazers from my best friend Anne-Marie. Despite whatever difficulties she may be facing right now, she too, took the time to look out for me.

I feel so amazingly blessed. Thank you all.